I owe no one, not any human beings, not God, not my parents, nor society, anything - I recognize no obligation for me to be held - for I am here without having asked to come here.
So then, if you scratch the surface of this attitude, and go deeper, very deep, go all the way down to the bottom, the core of this mindset - what's the mental language behind and under all this?
That God created me without my permission. That God had no right to put me into this difficult world, this cursed earth, to make me share all the pains, all the difficulties, all the burdens that come with being human that all others, all other people have to deal with as they go forth in the business of living.
Here's the Bible verse that totally obliterates that mindset's legitimacy:
"Who changed the truth of God into a lie, and
worshipped and served the creature more than the
Creator, who is blessed for ever. Amen"
After so many years of harboring this wrongful mindset, this ungrateful mindset for a great portion of my lifetime, what do I have to say for myself now before the presence of God seated upon His throne?
I don't know how far this will go, but it's all I have to offer Him in the way of a repentful apology:
My God, my Lord, my Savior, My King and Master - forgive me for I have sinned in that I put myself above you in mine own heart and harbored a satanic mindset that I reserved the right to consider myself entitled to be asked if I had wanted to be created by You before You Created me.
I humbly bring forth myself, my heart, my mind, all of me in full and final repentance, as I ask you that You forgive me for this one, this one most horrible among my many sins. Thank you for sending to us, Your Own Begotten Son, the Lord Jesus Christ, that He owing nothing, paid with his blood, with his body, with his very life this debt that I have owed you and could never rise to be enough to pay on my own strength for I have never had any righteousness at all before you that I could ever call my own. I yield myself to you sorry for my sin and in repentance before the foot of His cross and ask that you will completely and finally forgive me of all of, and of this horrendous, blasphemous, ungrateful, arrogant and proud, impertinent, and rebellious sin that took a stronghold and gave place to Satan in my heart and mind.
Amen and Amen.
Dear reader, I can never compensate God for having had such a sinful attitude such as this one or for any among all my dreadful, mortal sins.
Jesus who never sinned, who always pleased His Father, had to be the one to bail me and pay with His very life and redeem me from the curse of His own law for a lifetime of debts that I piled up, that I deserve just punishment for.
I do believe that He paid this sin among all of my sins which are too many to even begin counting.
It feels humiliating, shameful that I've done so much wrong that someone had to come, someone perfect: Jesus Christ who is both a man and who is the second person of God, and lay down his life to redeem me from my own sinful self.
But has been Jesus Christ's Love, is God the Father's Love worth my humiliating and humbling myself and acknowledging my own inferiority before Him?
Without any doubt at all, YES. God is worth that and more, much, much more.
Roberto E Fiad